The Two Week Torture

Mommy blogs call it the TTW - the two week wait. It's the approximately 14 days between ovulation and your period's due date - also known as the end of the agony when you can finally take a pregnancy test.

It really is true misery. Every little thing is a mind warp. My brain is spinning. "Are my boobs sore? Was that implantation cramping or gas? Oh! I'm nauseous! Is that in my head or is it real? In reality, it's probably too early to have any symptoms. But I want a symptom, so much. 

I finally broke down and took a cheap internet pregnancy test strip on day seven. I knew it was a total waste of a test, but I had to do something! Of course it was negative. I made it two more days, to day nine, and took another one. It was negative too.

Four more days until I can test again and actually maybe get a positive. It's torturing me. I broke down into a puddle of tears yesterday when my husband found the onesie I had been hiding as an announcement gift. He felt so bad, but I just couldn't stop crying. 

This wait is so. damn. hard.